In the wee small hours of this Christmas Eve morning, we were stalled in a snowstorm over Donner Pass. The delay was distressing to our drivers because we needed chains. Morale was low.
Yet, around 1:30 am — after a snowball fight with the crew — we carried on.
We are all exhausted, but for some reason I was the last man standing on my bus. I sat and watched all the snow-covered evergreens go by.
Then I realized something.
In ten years I really haven’t had Christmas. And, as a native Southern Californian, I certainly haven’t ever experienced a white Christmas.
This morning, I got to enjoy thousands of Christmas trees in my home state, as I breathed in the crisp, fresh air of the glorious Sierra Nevada mountains. The trees were beautifully decorated in glorious, white, frosty powder.
I wept alone as I gazed out the window. Each tree was uniquely ornamented, designed by the force of nature. I wanted to share it with everyone, but dared not wake my dear friends who were cozy; fast asleep in their bunks.
It’s been a lovely and difficult holiday season. I’ve probably felt sorry for myself more than I should, yet sometimes in suffering, I wonder where God is. I know I’m not alone in this.
But early this morning, when the storm cleared, there appeared a single star.
“When they saw the star, they were overjoyed.” ~Matthew 2:10
I am overjoyed, because I choose joy! I choose to rejoice in the things I have, instead what I don’t. God is real. He is kind and good. Maybe shitty things happen, but they are never far from His reach. He is love.
And, too, may you all choose joy this season. No matter what you are facing. You are so loved!
Merry Christmas, my friends.
Well said, my love, as always. I love you. Merry Christmas!
On Sunday, December 25, 2016, The Christian Girl’s Guide to Divorce wrote:
> christiangirlsguidetodivorce© posted: “In the wee small hours of this > Christmas Eve morning, we were stalled in a snowstorm over Donner Pass. The > delay was distressing to our drivers because we needed chains. Morale was > low. Yet, around 1:30 am — after a snowball fight with the crew bus” >
I love you, Matt! Merry Christmas!
Leslie, you tough-stuff guru girl, Merry Christmas from far away in the world. I’m alone too, also wondering where God is and if I’m out of his reach this time. Good post. I’m thinking about you and wishing you all the joy you can choose. I will never stop reading this blog.
Thank you, Sarah! Merry Christmas!
Thank you for your blog…. I started reading your blog a few years ago… when I first got divorced… I have to say you have given me encouragement and hope… and have helped through the difficult times… you are truly a sister I. Christ. God Bless you through the season and always.
Thank you for reading! I’m so glad you have been encouraged. Merry Christmas, Sherrie!