Happy New Year, Readers!
I know, it’s been a minute. I’ve been around, but inundated with teaching high school English. It feels soul-crushing, at times, but I do think I’ve made some progress with my students. I got this email from one on Christmas Eve:
Hi Ms. Spencer! Sorry it’s a little late, I just wanted to say happy holidays and merry Christmas.
I love being your student. Holidays are always a bit tougher for me and honestly you are the first teacher that’s been nice and patient with me. It means a lot. Once again Happy holidays!
Now THAT is something to be happy about, right? It’s the little things.
I was grateful to get some time off over the holidays, but it didn’t really look anything at all like I wanted it to. I dabbled in “dating” and got burned (no surprise there). So, instead of a New Year’s Resolution, I decided upon a paradigm shift. Especially when it comes to dating/relationships/love/hope for such things.
I’m back to square one: dating myself.
I still question how much work can one do on themselves before it pans out in the love and relationship department. Who even knows? Some people find their person right out of the gate. It’s taken me over a decade, and I’m still not quite there.
And that’s okay.
It’s an adage, but I am once again realizing I have to focus on myself these days, not on trying to save and/or love someone in whom I see potential.
We cannot date potential.
After all these years, I’m still a stupidly hopeless romantic, so I’ll keep on keeping on. There’s a good, healthy and equal relationship out there for me, I believe. Until — and/or if! — then, I’ll just be right here, correcting high school kids’ grammar, writing songs, laughing at life and hoping to meet someone just around the corner.
Thank you for the update! Your words continue to be inspiring and appreciated! ~Leandra