Wait, wait, wait — wait a minute.
“Why are you writing this?”
“Why on earth would you start a blog about your divorce? Nobody wants to read about that. You’re sharing WAY too much personal information. You’re going to get in big trouble. You should think twice before posting. You must still be stuck on your ex. You’re way too consumed with the past. Furthermore, what man is going to want to date you, after reading all of this? You’re insane! STOP!”
These are the thoughts that run through my head, or maybe what other people are thinking. (Nice try, Satan, you ninny. I’m sick of you!)
Then a smile spreads across my face, and I say, “This is me.”
I’m trusting God to use my story for His glory. Yep. I said it. I said that cheesy, Christian-ese phrase: MY STORY FOR HIS GLORY! There! I shouted it.
My intention is not to defame anybody. I don’t want to hurt anyone, especially myself. There is no “good guy/bad guy” in this story, because we’re all broken human beings. But God uses our brokenness, and can make beautiful, new life out of the darkness; out of the ashes.
I don’t actually know who is reading this. I do know how many are, though, and the feedback I have received has been extremely positive. I believe that my readers can identify with my thoughts, feelings and experiences, even if their own journey or beliefs are not exactly the same. One person even thanked me for helping her remember how much she missed reading. (!!)
That is why I keep going.
I’m a writer.
Furthermore, this isn’t the only story I have to tell.
I’m not making money, I don’t have a book deal, maybe I never will. I don’t know what God’s ultimate purpose for this is, but I do know that He is in control. He’s always in control.
I used to think that I had my life together. I also used to think that I had to be “perfect” in order to have a voice in this world.
Guess what? I’m not perfect. I am a broken, mangled, mess of a human being who just so happens to have gone through a heart-wrenching divorce. I do not recommend divorce. It is almost worse than death, maybe simply for the fact that the other person is still alive. There is no “happy ending”. But, I can tell you – there is hope. There is always hope. Hope, Part Infinity.
Isaiah 40:31 – “But those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.”
So, my friends, I continue — my story for HIS glory.